why?Zag!.......

[why?zag!]

well,

here are some songs i wrote about 18 years back. found them in a note book i had long thrown away - an accidental search for it (was looking for a custom made old saddlebag for a long forgotten bike trip i finally decided to go on out of the blue) resulted in me being able to salvage just a few pages (thanks to the rodents in the storeroom). thought i'd share some of the song lyrics i wrote back then

 

[why?zag!]

There’s a hole in my shadow
Where my heart’s supposed to be….
Trail of tears in the footsteps
That seems to lead away from me….

What happens will be
Time’s outrunning me
And dragging me on…..

It’s your face, it’s your memories
That have always, kept me strong
It’s your prayers; it’s your trust in me
Where did life go so wrong?

Your laughter still surrounds me
Your love still keeps me warm
But still I miss the reason
I can’t hold you in my arms

Guess what happens will be
Time’s outrunning me
And dragging me on…..

Helpless, a heart full of hate
I begged, in vain
You just smiled, and you let go
Left me alone, shamed in pain

In the rain I felt you
And you were with me, I know
It’s your dream I need to fulfil
Before I finally let go………..

Guess what happens will be
Time’s outrunning me
And dragging me on…
(And dragging me on…..
I‘ll fight on my knees
Won’t give in so meek
I’ll always be strong
Missed you all along
Until truth dawned
You were always with me..)…….

 

[why?zag!]

Naked have we come
Naked shall we depart
Never ever know where we come from
How and when we part

We all seek a shelter in the storm
They say we’re all born warm
How come does the coldness, then
Creep into our palms

Whine’ in the come
We all pine in the go
And in between, drag ourselves
Along the floor ……………….
What is to come will go
What is gone, is left some more
The more i comprehend, the lesser I seem to know……………

Hard to seek, hard to know, hard to find
Age’s withered the old crossroad sign
The maze too thick, the fog too deep
Too afraid to take the leap
Stormy waters feel treacherous
Still waters run too deep....

Flotsam…………………

When I finally, run, out of hate
Stand, shamed, outside you gate
When the prodigal son returns
And I hesitate………..

When I find my way back home
Washed up ashore, and I’m alone
When I doubt, but my faith, it shouts
Will you not disown?

When Dreams, they die young
The memoirs, remain unsung
Legends they say, true heroes, always die unsung
What comes will go
What goes is gone
The more i comprehend, the lesser I seem to know……………

Hard to seek, hard to know, hard to find
Age’s withered the old crossroad sign
The maze too thick, the fog too deep
Too afraid to take the leap
Stormy waters feel treacherous
Still waters run too deep....... (Flotsam)………….

 

[why?zag!]

Swore it true, so I believed in you
Now you’re gone, what do I do?
You found somebody else, and I’ve lost
I’ve lost myself…………..

At first I cried, until my tears they dried
Shut myself up, from the world outside

Look at my wrists! Is this me?
The face in the mirror! How could it be?

Begged you, what is pride?
She stood next to you, amazed at my frailty
Shamed, I hurt myself; I lost my grip on reality……

When nightmares came, you were since long gone
Threat onto myself, the asylum is where I now belong……

Baby! They say you hurt me
But it was always love to me…….
Maybe! I’m insane now
But it was always love to me…….

Smile as my wrist bleeds; I’m dizzy as you leave me again
The pain seems unreal, I have found my sanity finally……….

Baby! They say you hurt me
But it was always love to me…..
Maybe! I’m no more now
But it was always love to me………………….

 

[LyricalLaurel]

I'm moved in all sorts of directions by your lyrics. Again,I find myself without words. I'll be back....

 

[why?zag!]

I'm moved in all sorts of directions by your lyrics. Again,I find myself without words. I'll be back....

i know - i mean i cant understand myself when i read this stuff now. seems like i was another person back then. but that is the magic of teenage and the 80's. love is meant to be sweet when it's there and remain sweet when it is gone - no bitterness, no hate, no regrets. love always makes you a better person.

would you believe this is a sailor taking.......oops! the reputation people burden us with..........

 

[why?zag!]

like the zephyr you came
i filled your heart
your smile ignored my emptiness
the emptiness, that was becoming me....

every gust of wind that blew
warned me of fears i secretly knew
always silently knew..............

felt the storm getting closer
the trees, they shed their buds
and you trampled the unborn flower......
tell me whom do i blame now?
the storm ? the tree ? or you ?
cant even start anew !..............

my undead dreams flow out with tears,
i never let escape.........

life and love,
life and love walk hand in hand
too sacred to ever let go ...........
life and love
both gifted to you
how could you ever let me go ......

the empty heart or the heart that's full....
the empty heart or the one that's full
which is the one that hurts more?
the one that really, hurts more.....

they say you'll never come back again
nobody who is gone ever has
nobody, ever has...............

but you'd have to come back only when....
...you'd have to come back again
only had you ever gone,
part of you has never gone..........

always somewhere inside a part of me
my smile, my tear, my grief,
my smile, my tear, my grief........

feel the storm getting closer
the trees they shed their buds
and there lies the unborn flower......
tell me whom do i blame now?
the storm ? the tree ? or me ?
as i start nothing new !..............

life and love,
life and love walk hand in hand
too sacred to ever let go ...........
life and love
they're both gifted to you,
pray i never let you go.............

 

[why?zag!]

some recent lyrics -

i'm intact
except for pride
bruised so badly
i'm shattered all inside

this is life
you're not alone
everyone standing
is fighting on their own

time will heal
the pain will flow
surrender so meek
darkness swallows me i know

bit by bit
i crumble
crawl to the velvet hues
have everything that's yours
except for you
everything - except for you.......

turn back time
walk down the stairs
if its tough
well I’m already halfway there

silent scars
the masquerade
in deep slumber
hurts to wait - for you to wake

time will heal
the pain it will flow
surrender so meek
darkness swallows me and i know

bit by bit
i crumble
crawl to the velvet hues
have everything that's yours
except for you
everything - except for you.......