A Journey Into My Mind

[Prime]

First off, before I get into what this thread is about, I want to give a bit of a "warning", I am very dark, poetically. I'm sort of a young Edgar Allen Poe, in fact...he's one of my big influences. And to answer your question that you may or may not have, this thread is not about my music or...lack there of, I am a "musician of literature", meaning I write poetry. I realize that I posted some of my stuff in my "Crime and Punishment" journal, but I really wanted one place where it consisted of just my words.

Onto what you will find:
All of my poetry is based off of personal events, meaning...what you read is what has actually happened in my life, or other lives of which I am involved in. I have tried many outlets, but this one has stuck for many many years, and has helped me convey my emotion into something worthwhile. Now...I generally write these poems because I like to have a sort of attachment to myself, so comments and criticism are appreciated, but I am doing this for myself, and the gratitude or concerns from the readers are a plus. If however you would like to know the meaning behind any of these, feel free to send a PM and I will gladly tell you the story. I am not one for hiding much, so I have no problem explaining to you the story behind some things.

Whether you read these or not is no concern of mine. I really wanted to start this as a "go to" thread for myself. There is one thing I want to mention before this thread gets going. My poetry can be a bit "far off", or it just won't make a lot of sense. And that's actually something I do on purpose. Some of my stuff will have flow, and some won't. Most of this is written through my sadness and hurt. So it's natural that some of it will have things that really don't come off as "traditional".

As I said before, if you have any questions as to what any of these mean, feel free to PM me. I will be more than happy to share.​

 

[Prime]

Most recent...

Titled: Life Needs A Fast-Forward Button

There are things that are just unbearable to go through,
things I wish nobody had to deal with,
things I wish I didn't have to deal with.

I can't continue to put on a happy face,
when deep down im upset.
I can't keep hiding myself from my friends,
when they know things are wrong.
I continue to do so,
and I am falling because of it.

I need guidance,
I need help,
I need someone to get me back on my tracks.

I'm lost.​

 

[Prime]

Untitled

I have begun to take the first step,
realizing what i've been doing all this time, has been wrong.
I don't know why I kept with it,
I can't see how it was ever beneficial,
but it was something to escape to,
when I need to run.

I'm noticing a comparison between the two,
I get upset, I run away,
I get angry, I run away,
I get depressed, I get sad,
I run away.
To it.

There's nothing more I want then to fight this curse,
nothing else I can see my self being happy with.
Only through time will I realize that I am far better off.
I'm a much better person,
this is just my first step.
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[aeroplane]

I'm definitely interested in reading your work since I love creative minds and write myself (though I don't write poetry).

I'm at work right now but look forward to sinking my teeth into your stuff, well right after I finish with Scarlett

 

[Prime]

Good to hear

 

[Prime]

Doubts

There is something in my mind telling me that I am wrong,
for that I should quit trying to quit.
I'm having doubts, my head is cold,
my hands are like ice,
my body shakes and sweats uncontrollably.
All for the thought of something I want to avoid.

It's never been this hard,
i've been through this road before.
This time it just feels different,
it feels like if I were to back out on this,
I wouldn't only be disappointing myself,
i'd be disappointing others around me.

I have to keep my mind on track,
I can't lose sight of what I am trying to do.
This is something that is important,
and if I can do this,
I will be able to live again.
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[JimmyByrne09]

You got some great stuff here man! Wow, good work.

 

[Prime]

Thank you very much.

 

[Prime]

All Is Gone And Lost

Can't seem to think properly,
unable to see things clearly as I was.
Things feel like they are changing,
people seem like they are leaving,
I don't feel like myself.

The force that defined me,
has been stripped away,
and is taking its toll on me slowly.

Its for the best that it's gone,
but it's not as easy as I had hoped.

I want what I can't want,
I need what I don't need.

I can't control it,
but I can fight it.

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[JimmyByrne09]

I know the feeling man, and all you can ever do is fight it...